I don’t know if this is something women and mothers go through but earlier this year, I had just had enough. I just wanted to pull the plug and stop my communications with the world. I was back in the hospital in February after Japan after recurrent symptoms since December in London. After 5 years of being in business, after 10 years of constant giving, after 15 years of dealing with women since I became a committee member and wrote for the IBU Family Resource Group, I turned numb.
It helped that I was traveling for the first 6 months of the year, Japan, London, Alaska, Penang, Adelaide, Melbourne, Seattle, British Colombia, Wales, London again, East Coast Malaysia, honestly I can’t even remember where else we went as a distraction; then I bought the house to keep myself busy and distracted again, all this while subconsciously running away from the one thing that was making me uncomfortable, the not knowing……
I was bored, kind of like a mid-life crisis that men go through kind of bored. No way was I going to have an affair, wasn’t interested in one at all, but after having everything, what next? What next? I had everything. The Hubs said, “Just spend more time with your kids and grow them.” I already did a lot and it wasn’t enough. Something else was missing but I did not know what.
I started spending time with some old foggies, single parents of my friends or random veterans I would meet in my day to day that became friends who were double or more than double my age. They were way more interesting and had tons of stories to share with my restless mind. The people around me, my peers, no longer interested me. Nobody had that inquiring mind with enough depth and that isn’t to say they were incompetent in any way. I was just demanding more. I needed more fuel.
I was really stuck. For 8 months admittedly of which 6 I was busy traveling, I did nothing productive because I was in such internal turmoil. It was the not knowing. The Hubs comforted me by asking what I had to be productive about anyway? I didn’t know. I just felt unsettled.
In my day to day activities, as I continued meeting new people and talking more to all these new people, suddenly I decided that I would go back to school. The people whom I once targeted as future business partners, I let go and poured love onto them instead and gave them thousands and thousands of dollars. The Hubs made me the Project Manager of my new home construction project to keep me occupied for the next 5 months and as it is, we are already behind schedule and have not begun. Whilst still supporting my team in the background, on impulse I took the plunge and committed to a course of psychology and executive coaching to improve my skills and I am SO GLAD that I did because this is what fuels me these days.
Working with an international team of corporate big wigs (where I am the smallest little fry) and an excellent experienced tutor, I am LOVING IT.
THANK YOU.
Not sure what 2020 holds for me but I am very happy right now. For now. Heh.
**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin is a former Design Architect turned Multi-Million Dollar Digital Entrepreneur. She sets out to prove to all that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past and doubled her salary 5 times over 5 organisations but has grown THREE BUSINESSES to 7 FIGURES within an 8 year period. She now shows others EXACTLY HOW after retiring her own husband from employment. He is now the official dog walker, family driver, chef and THE BEST FATHER to their two girls and THE BEST HUSBAND to the woman who CHOSE HIM!
Mamapumpkin is the girl who has nothing but fights for everything including YOU. She is idealistic in her desire to put unbelievable amounts of money and extrardinary happiness into the lives of good people so we can change the world together believing in happiness for ALL. She strives to impact lives authentically wanting to reduce poverty cycles and enable quality education for all and always supports the voiceless. She believes we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
If you wish to learn how to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave to take action. Mamapumpkin's purpose is to build people. Her gift is to help them UNCOVER their HIDDEN GIFTS. She operates fairly and always leaves an impression. You either love her or not and she is alright either way.
She is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything with anyone, as she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
