Our Alter Egos – Motherhood for the first time

Motherhood for the first time.

May 2005
I used to have this dynamic career in the corporate world that brought me so much satisfaction. I would overcome challenge after challenge, day after day, nothing was impossible. And I thrived on this excitement for every time I achieved what had not been done before, I gave myself a pat on my own back. I attracted attention as I worked to impress and impress I did. How different life was back then….I am now mother to a gorgeous little baby girl, living in the heart of Kuala Lumpur. For the last almost 2 years of my life, since I got pregnant, I suddenly realised that my biggest challenge was yet to hit. Always the person who managed it all, pregnancy and motherhood totally threw me out of my comfort zone into the zone of complete insecurity. Our Alter Egos certainly does play tricks on us, definitely when you are experiencing motherhood for the first time.

>>Fast Forward >>

After graduating from the express course of hands-on parenting, I can safely say now that I feel comfortable being a mom. I can drive to the shops alone with my little one. I can stay home and care for us both alone without hired help and still be able to welcome Daddy home with a genuine smile. I can do so much on so little sleep, something I never thought possible.

Motherhood really surprises you.

As a new Mom for the first time, do you feel that you have an Alter Ego?

I yearn for the corporate buzz and attention again. Yet as a woman in Asia, I have to choose if I wanted A, B or C. This decision has been sending me into dizzy twirls bimonthly and until today I am still undecided as to A, B or C. What has motherhood done to me ? Before, decision making was easy. Give me the facts. Analyse the situation. Calculate the risks. Decide.

But now……???

After spending a whole 2 years of not working in a corporate office, I do sometimes feel like I have dead brain cells lurking in my head. I talk baby talk, I make funny faces, I watch the most boring of toddler TV. This, what I feel as a downward spiral of my intellectual capacity, has caused me to start looking for a job again. A real one. A respectable one.

But guess what ? I went for a few interviews, got offered some really great paying jobs (that would be at least a 5 figure salary), yet couldn’t bring myself to take any of them on. Despite the Alter Ego telling me this and that and everything else…

My baby stopped me. Yes, she is that powerful.

I now wonder if deep down I actually knew what I’ve really wanted all along, and in effect, A, B or C was really just a simple decision. It was my alter ego playing tricks on my weaknesses.

Yes, we all have weaknesses.

Even you.

Motherhood for the first time is the greatest blessing you will find, even when your alter ego tells you otherwise.

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin is a former Design Architect turned Multi-Million Dollar Digital Entrepreneur. She sets out to prove to all that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past and doubled her salary 5 times over 5 organisations but has grown THREE BUSINESSES to 7 FIGURES within an 8 year period. She now shows others EXACTLY HOW after retiring her own husband from employment. He is now the official dog walker, family driver, chef and THE BEST FATHER to their two girls and THE BEST HUSBAND to the woman who CHOSE HIM!

Mamapumpkin is the girl who has nothing but fights for everything including YOU. She is idealistic in her desire to put unbelievable amounts of money and extrardinary happiness into the lives of good people so we can change the world together believing in happiness for ALL. She strives to impact lives authentically wanting to reduce poverty cycles and enable quality education for all and always supports the voiceless. She believes we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.

A beautiful life without limits.

If you wish to learn how to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave to take action. Mamapumpkin's purpose is to build people. Her gift is to help them UNCOVER their HIDDEN GIFTS. She operates fairly and always leaves an impression. You either love her or not and she is alright either way.

She is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything with anyone, as she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.