Being at home for 4 weeks has saved us a lot of time going out and it has allowed me to reflect upon my years. They have really been magical, not without pain, but I am truly blessed.
I spent my first 5 years of life singing I’m nobody’s child, know that one? My biological father did not want me. My adopted father didn’t show much interest and my stepfather didn’t give two hoots about my existence either. That was then.
In between, I had many failed events and some horrific trauma from being unprotected as a child and being alone, alone, alone in this big bad world. It is no wonder I have lived on the streets as a teenager and hung out with gangsters without fear because at the end of the day, you go with who accepts you. I have done so much in the short 48 years that I would pay money to bet that I had a more colourful life than most and this is where I miss my departed friends so, so much. They were there, they were like me, and they knew. They knew the kind of different unconventional life we grew up with.
Never in my life did I imagine to be where I am today. When my mom passed away, she was my everything, but I was left with a 6 figure debt. Just like that through no fault of hers except that she kept falling in love with the wrong man. I wiped out my life savings, and with my brothers help who wiped out his too, together we paid the bank. Nobody helped us. Not a single friend or family stepped up and till today, only one London friend of my late Mom stays in touch.
Since then, my life as though my late Mom had some kind of spiritual influence, or perhaps it was her way of forgiveness, did a 360 turn.
The many friends who betrayed me and left me, they no longer mattered. Some people only want to be your friend because of their own agendas anyway. Just as well they got weeded out early.
I do not think I could have done this without some big mentors in my life who just showed up at all the right times. The millionaire who had a butler to iron his shoelaces (thank you), Toh Puan who offered me her strength in spirit (thank you), the international architect who offered me an honourable job (which I humbly declined, thank you), my dearest departed friends, the guy who understood and protected me inside out (how I truly miss you), the lupus girl who holidayed together with me in Poland plus sleepovers in London, the South African Mama who ran away from her husband like an espionage spy and my dear Doctor friend who dug her own child out of the grave. Wild. Yet the reality of it is that these real things have happened. It makes me feel old. I cannot relate to those who have not seen life.
Thank you too to the friends who bitched about me a million times over. Some said I could never be slim. Some criticised the way I looked, the things I did or didn’t do and some just made up lies about me through and through. They know exactly who they are. A lot of the times I have underestimated who I am, but no longer. Today, I know exactly who I am and I know exactly who I am not and never will be.
The thing is, nothing has changed. I am who I always was. When I joined Asiaworks at 19, I already knew who I was and who I was going to be. Nothing has changed at all.
Betrayals have taught me strength harder than even what any man or family member hurt me with. They showed me the side of humans that I never believe existed but so thankful that now I know. I’ll tell you a funny story. Once a lady spent a few hours with me sent by the enemy and the whole time, I knew she was a farce. I’m telling you, it is solid experience that sharpens your antennas to identify these little shits whom I actually feel sorry for now that I know better.
Anyway, the reason I share vulnerably today is to lift someone who is at rock bottom. I know that there are so many of you out there in despair. The pain is real and you are struggling so hard that waking up seems impossible.
Please trust me today. This is temporary.
If you make the decision that you will not be defeated, you will rise. Taller. Stronger. And earning a million bucks or more till none of this matters anymore. New love will enter your life. Things will start falling into place even when you know it can never be true. Trust me. For it will become true if you made just that one decision that you will NOT be defeated but rise instead. I am holding your hand tight and praying for your clarity from every direction. You will be OK.
**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin is a former Design Architect turned Multi-Million Dollar Digital Entrepreneur. She sets out to prove to all that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past and doubled her salary 5 times over 5 organisations but has grown THREE BUSINESSES to 7 FIGURES within an 8 year period. She now shows others EXACTLY HOW after retiring her own husband from employment. He is now the official dog walker, family driver, chef and THE BEST FATHER to their two girls and THE BEST HUSBAND to the woman who CHOSE HIM!
Mamapumpkin is the girl who has nothing but fights for everything including YOU. She is idealistic in her desire to put unbelievable amounts of money and extrardinary happiness into the lives of good people so we can change the world together believing in happiness for ALL. She strives to impact lives authentically wanting to reduce poverty cycles and enable quality education for all and always supports the voiceless. She believes we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
If you wish to learn how to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave to take action. Mamapumpkin's purpose is to build people. Her gift is to help them UNCOVER their HIDDEN GIFTS. She operates fairly and always leaves an impression. You either love her or not and she is alright either way.
She is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything with anyone, as she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
