It is official. I am an emotional eater. It is almost a month now that I am handling two kids and a household without a helper and out of that month, 2 weeks with a guest from Australia. Tired is not the word to describe my state of being. I feel the pain cutting through the centre of my bones.
Having house guests means having to wake up extra early to make sure they have breakfast. It means driving them to their destination of choice. Sometimes it means accompanying them to their destination of choice. Of course, I don’t have to do all this. But if people come all the way to visit you and spend time with you, I think it is the least I can do. But it’s tiring. Just because my days are already jammed packed without them around.
Seriously, sardined jammed packed.
For example, Tee had a fever last night and woke up several times crying because she was in pain. T2, woke up several times too because it is her bad habit. We have good nights and we have bad nights. Last night was a bad night. Tee, on my right would wake up. An hour later, T2, on my left, would wake up. An hour later, Tee, on my right would wake again. And I kept swinging left to right to left to right until I thought I was a boat in the sea.
This morning, T2 woke at 8am. I prepared her breakfast, fed her, cleaned her up, bathed her, cleaned her ears, cut her nails, and put her down for a nap. By that time it was 10.30am and I swallowed a stale Ramly burger in 15 minutes, screamed at Tee to please allow me to enjoy my rubbish breakfast in peace as it is the only time I get to have peace, if at all. Mind you, I put T2 to sleep but she did not go to sleep. By the time I finished my burger, it was time to prepare lunch for Tee and T2. By the time, I finished preparing lunch, it was time to feed T2 again. But she knocked off for an hour whilst I quickly cleaned up the kitchen. By the time lunch was over, it was 3pm and we all went in for a nap, which I very much needed. It was the highlight of my day! By the way, did I mention I had an orange for lunch. It was great, sweet and juicy! We woke at 530pm and I had to rush dinner. By the time I blended dinner and fed T2, it was 730pm. Clean up blablablablablabla…………..seriously? There is no time to even have a private, peaceful shit on my own. THAT, is the state of affairs here right now. Every single day.
Not that I’m complaining. Like I told the Hubs, I don’t mind not having help but I really DO need support. Support and lots of appreciation.
In the meantime, I have been binge eating. I’ve noticed that whenever I’m stressed, tired, feeling overwhelmed with a crying baby, I hunt desperately for chocolate. And I gulp it down. It has a calming effect on me. It is so bad. But for now, that is the only way I know how to cope.
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I hear ya! One month into being maidless, I put on 2 kg, and was on my way to the 3rd! The thing is, those comfort food calmed me down, and gave me the energy boost I so badly needed because it is oh-so-physically exhausting, as you would know. However the weight gain is making me feel very unhappy, I just don’t feel good about myself. Worse, I don’t have the time, nor the residual energy to exercise, because if I had, I would. Then I would be able to lose the excess weight in no time. So, now I know, I cannot be ambitious about incorporating gym time into my lift. At this point, I can only do one thing to help me feel better about myself, that is to eat well, and lose that 2kg, and eat well some more, so I feel healthy and happy. I’ve been very selective in what I eat: oatmeal, yogurt, muesli, eating less rice more vegetables, clear soups etc. I feel that a couple pieces of Dark chocolate a day doesn’t hurt. It’s good for the heart *wink wink*, and it is a good emotional booster. I’ve lost 1 kg this past couple of week… even with dark chocolate in the diet. I also believe that when good food goes into the body, good feelings will come out of it! 🙂