……is not fun at all.

She wants me all the time. She cries and cries and cries and there isn’t much of any cry sound left but she still tries to cry…..

But what can I do? I have to feed her sister. I have to feed her, though I’m not sure why I bother because she rejects EVERYTHING, except the boob, of course. But I am trying so hard to wean her off that because it is obviously not giving her any nutrition as she is now worse than ever in the bottom 1 percentile of a WHO breastfeeding growth chart. This means that out of all the babies in the world, only 1 per cent is in the same situation as T2. And although people tell me not to worry, shit, if your baby was 6 kilos and 10 months old, YOU WILL WORRY. She has not gained weight since she was 4.5 months old. And now that she is sick, she has lost weight. I have tried spoon feeding her the formula, I have tried cup feeding, I have tried pushing solids every 2 hours into her mouth. It doesn’t work. When she wants to eat, she will eat. When she doesn’t, she doesn’t. What does one do? I guess I should make an appointment with the pediatrician tomorrow to start addressing her weight issues. She cannot be anorexic already!

What about me? I hardly have time to eat myself thus I want to STOP breastfeeding because she probably gets nothing from these breasts of mine. By the time I get breakfast ready and feed them both their medicine, it’s time to clear up and prepare lunch. By the time lunch is over, it’s time to clear up, feed them their meds again and put them down for a nap. And because I am recovering from days of sleepless nights from the hospital, I sneak a nap in with them. And then when we wake up, it’s time to prepare dinner. After dinner, meds again and then what? There is no time to eat, believe me, short of sneaking in a cookie or two. I am so tired. And hungry.

I just had a maggi mee. And I am so sad that T2 will be eating it for dinner later via the boob. I am frustrated. I am exhausted. I am beat. I am spent. I hear crying all day long. T1 doesn’t even dare complain about anything as she knows how stressed I am.

OK, rant over. Thank you for listening. Not asking for any sympathy. Just wanted to get things out of my system. When the going gets tough, the tough get going.

At least, this keeps T2 quiet but I still need to watch her as she tends to put it into her mouth. Tearing tissues, her favourite past time at the hospital……

God, I feel better already!

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