I know you won’t believe me when I say I’m busy. But truly I am. My to do list never ends and my life is a constant catch up of balancing my to do list, ensuring that the list gets shorter as more tasks get piled onto it at near lightning speed. I’m always on the phone because there are too many messages to catch up on. I don’t even respond to all. No way. Only the important ones so I’m prioritising every second. Because time is so precious.

If you asked my kids what was the one thing they remembered about Mommy when they were growing up, I’ll bet they’d say, “She was always on the phone asking us to be quiet!”

What a memory!

*blank look*

O__O

Thank GOD, I have lovely, forgiving kids. They know that when I work, I work hard. But when I play, I play just as hard. And the play is so good that it is worth the wait from the work. Thank you, my little darlings.

My life is all about juggling and I am perpetually stressed. I AM!!! If you see me being all friendly and calm, smiling and asking you how your mother is, know that deep down I am wondering how bad my Mom’s pain is, wondering if T1 is being bullied at school, wondering if T2 is bored being at home, wondering if I can be at the client’s office on time, wondering if the bank will approve my loan, wondering where I’m going to find the time to make T1’s Halloween costume, wondering when I’m going to pack for my trip, wondering how I am going to pay my bills, wondering how I’m going to sort the work crisis, wondering how I’m going to make a change, wondering if my assistant will remember what I’ve told her to do, wondering how I’m going to help, wondering if I can re-draft that charity letter whilst on the toilet bowl, wondering oh, so many things! I know that sounds really bad. I do really care about your Mother, but I still have these 101 things that needs sorting and only one head to sort it all. I’m multi-tasking all the time. Whilst waiting to pick T1 up from school, I’m either on the phone or the ipad. I’m on the phone at every traffic light. I have my notebook in the car when I’m driving just to make notes at every stop. My kids hardly get to talk to me because I’m always on the phone with someone else! Negotiating a lease, screwing a bank, chasing payments, interviewing staff, overseas con-calls. I’m so busy I cannot even remember that I don’t have cash in my wallet! Or I don’t have time to go to the bank! It’s just insane!

And thank you to the lady who offered to do my groceries for me. Thank you so much!

One day, I was at a nutrition camp with my kids and learning about food, all about food. Having no driver and having to manage two kids in a parking lot is challenging, especially when one refuses to be carried but wants to run along the busy street with oncoming cars. Have you ever carried a toddler who fights you that you have to have super sharpened reflexes to keep her from falling off you and hurting herself as a consequence? After NutriCamp, we had to run an errand in Subang. Then we drove down to Port Klang to see the Logos floating mobile library. By the time we were done, it was bang on peak hour traffic coming back (DUH!) and we had to skip our piano class. But not only that, I wasn’t prepared for dinner. The original plan was to go for piano, have dinner in BV and zoom home in time for exercise. But after an hour in peak traffic from Port Klang, I had to think of back up dinner plans, which is when I spotted the big M ‘drive-thru’ sign.

Ting-ting-ting!

I cleverly drove through and ordered our dinner rather reluctantly because I hate junk food, especially at M’s but the kids were way happy. Thrice a year, I reminded them.

When we drove to the next counter to pay, my eyes started playing tricks on me. The money that I thought I had was no longer there!

“Do you accept credit cards?” I asked sheepishly with raised eyebrows.

The guy shook his head. How can they NOT accept credit cards? Such a big multinational business and they don’t do credit cards??? He looked at me, I looked at him. I asked T1 if she had any money and she gave me a blank look. So I told her to start looking around the car for money. And for a whole 5 minutes, we were both doing a treasure hunt in the car for some spare cash. We were only pennies short. But you know what? I am blessed. Whenever in crisis, someone/something/somehow always rescues me. I will never take that for granted. So we actually did find IN THE CAR in one of T2’s many hand bags, some loose coins to get us out of the big M without having to sell any of the kids.

But whilst driving out of there after another kilometre, I saw another sign that gave me an even bigger heart attack.

TOLL

Shit. I had no money for toll!!! Do I drive through the barrier and speed away like a maniac? Do I borrow some money from the Toll woman and leave my business card with her promising to pay back 100 times more for her understanding and generosity? Do I throw the ball into their court and let them decide what I should do? If I didn’t have any money, I didn’t have any money, right? What else would they want me to do?

And then a bright spark lit – Smart Tag! I have Smart Tag! (DUH again…..)

So I confidently drove to the toll booth and passed the lady my Smart Tag.

“You tak gi lane Smart Tag ke tadi?”

“Oh, tak la….hehe. I baru ja tahu takde duit.”

“Kalau u takde duit, u kena gi lane Smart Tag la!”

“Ya, tahu. Tapi baru sekarang ja tahu, duit takde……”

“Lain kali u check awal-awal ya?”

“Ya…..”

The toll woman filled in some forms whilst the snaking queue behind me got longer and longer. SORRY to all you who waited for me!!!!!! It was me!!!!

And then we were truly on our way home. T1 thought we were going to get arrested and T2 was famished. It was way past their dinner time……

FAARKKKK!!!

Sometimes, I wonder. Is this really working?

I wasn’t meant to work. My husband doesn’t want me to work. And our lives were headed in the direction of me not working. So what happened?

Now that I’ve had a taste of it, work gives me that BUZZZZZZ……it keeps me so alive!!! I’m full of energy and I’m excited, it’s just so invigorating that it makes me much happier than being a bored, gossipy housewife; who sometimes reads the news and stays in touch with the corporate world. And at other times, go for yet another meal and hang out with fellow women in similar categories to discuss our children……..or worse, other Moms.

*yawn*

I love my kids. Don’t get me wrong. I just need more.

 

 

 

 

 

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
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