Yes. I am a Mom with a FULL SCHEDULE. Even when I intentionally and purposefully block my diary out the following week for doing absolutely nothing, it somehow gets filled up to the brim. What nuances can I change to make this change? Sometimes I think I have some psychological defect to disable myself from giving back to myself wholeheartedly, wholesomely and completely. It’s like, I freaking deserve it, right?
I have worked so hard. I have jumped out of my comfort zone since forever. I have been pushed into the deep end for survival. I have spoken to thousands of people. I have studied way more than the average Joe. I have all this knowledge in my head. I have been abused, battered and left to dry with enough of pain that was never called for. Yet I only know how to give to others but not to self. What’s up, God?
Every single year, I tell myself it’s mine. This year, is mine. That’s a whole load of bollocks because it never is. Perhaps life is a progression. Surely there are changes this year and not without huge sacrifice. I have detached myself from family or rather have learnt the skills to do so, my late Mom was the pro. I used to be very sentimental but now I know that we don’t choose our family. If our friends treat us better, then let’s celebrate friendship. We are after all what we make of our lives, right? Let go of all obstacles that hold us back to live our authentic lives and you will discover that you never imagined a stronger happiness.
Coming back to my full schedule, last week I totally over-scheduled myself thinking I was still the efficient spring chicken I once was. I had 5-6 physical tasks each day. Physical tasks meaning me having to leave the home to actually go out to see people, something I really do not like doing for various reasons which kind of makes me a hermit. It is what it is. I have met enough people in my lifetime and not many have inspired me to jump out of bed of late in the last 5 years. Over-scheduling myself from meeting to meeting whether it was meet ups with friends or kids’ activities, and even with a driver, left me crazy exhausted. TRULY out of my comfort zone. I don’t even know why I say yes to people.
Anyways, after that trauma, the Hubs ordered that I keep the following week free to work on my new business of Executive Coaching. I told him I already had 2 days full. He said, OK then make sure the next 3 days are completely free. Ermm. Gee. It’s Wednesday today and I am packed out till the end of the year. How did that happen??????? He’s going to be livid!!!!
We were thinking of booking the Four Seasons for a Staycation and I can’t find any free days to go!!! That is crazy, right? I’m not going to pay a few thousand for a room and not spend any time in it!!!
This has really forced me to take a step back to relook my life. I have a brain tumour and it is growing. It has been there for a long time with all the years of my head sleeping beside my phone. I look fine to everyone but in months or years, I am the one who’s going to be faced with the consequences of the tumour. Is it worth it to say yes to others just to keep the peace and make everyone else happy? At which point do we say, I am sorry but I really need to rest. The less educated and experienced portion of the women community can be uncompromisingly cruel but maybe it is just what it is and I allow them be cruel because at the end of the day, it is between me and God, right?
OK, so let’s try this again. I need a freaking PA. Not an easy find at all because my head works at lightning speed and not many can keep up. I promise myself that I will have more life balance next year. Honest to GOD. You are my witness. I will no longer answer messages immediately but I will answer them eventually. This should empower women to become more resourceful instead of being spoon-fed all the time.
**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin is a former Design Architect turned Multi-Million Dollar Digital Entrepreneur. She sets out to prove to all that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past and doubled her salary 5 times over 5 organisations but has grown THREE BUSINESSES to 7 FIGURES within an 8 year period. She now shows others EXACTLY HOW after retiring her own husband from employment. He is now the official dog walker, family driver, chef and THE BEST FATHER to their two girls and THE BEST HUSBAND to the woman who CHOSE HIM!
Mamapumpkin is the girl who has nothing but fights for everything including YOU. She is idealistic in her desire to put unbelievable amounts of money and extrardinary happiness into the lives of good people so we can change the world together believing in happiness for ALL. She strives to impact lives authentically wanting to reduce poverty cycles and enable quality education for all and always supports the voiceless. She believes we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
If you wish to learn how to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave to take action. Mamapumpkin's purpose is to build people. Her gift is to help them UNCOVER their HIDDEN GIFTS. She operates fairly and always leaves an impression. You either love her or not and she is alright either way.
She is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything with anyone, as she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
