Did you know that suicide in Malaysia in this day and age of 2022, has finally stopped being a criminal offence? Imagine someone who already suffers mental instability only to attempt suicide and then be charged for suicide? I am feeling so sad today because after 30 years of losing my best friend to suicide, who called me from Singapore whilst I was in the UK, I lost another friend this week.

The last I had contact with her was just 15 days ago…..not immediate, and she was an amazing woman.

First and foremost, I would like to say that whatever the doctors tell you about your perceived mental illness, did you know that you can overcome it all? Honestly, if people were mean to me and kept doing unfair actions, I would go mental too! Just because you have been labelled as schizophrenic or bipolar or whatever they wish to label you as, as per their ‘diagnosis’, I KNOW that the mind is so powerful that you could actually change out of your state of despair, if you wanted to.

I know that it is not the easiest thing to do because I have certainly been depressed before, but I always ask myself, do I want to continue living a life of sadness or do I want to change my circumstance, my state; and thankfully, I have chosen the latter after my parents got divorced when I sunk into depression at the University age of 20. I thought my world had ended and spent all my days sleeping……

I was lucky that I had people who did care about me then that got me over the hump, little by little, day after day, and before I knew it, I was back in happy zone. Depression is hard. You just cannot control it when you are ‘in it’ and despite what everyone says to get over it, and that things will get better (I have even done it myself!), the reality of it is, it’s just not that simple. It is a physiological state.

I know because with all my intelligence, me of all people, would be strong and clever enough not to be depressed. About ANYTHING!!! Yet, as an adult, I was depressed 2 years after my late Mom passed away when it suddenly hit that she was no longer around. For 2 whole years, I’d kept myself super busy just to numb myself away from the pain…. and then it just hit one day and I began crying every single day for 2 months. Just like how I’d cried daily for 2 years when my friend Sam died. Don’t ask me why I only cried 2 months over my Mom versus 2 years with my friend because I have no idea. It just was…. and no, I did not love my friend more than my own Mom. Not at all. Perhaps I was in better control of my emotional state as an adult.

I was mildly depressed again recently this year when I experienced my spiritual awakening. I didn’t think anyone would understand and so I withdrew myself and am so thankful I did. It showed me that I really had to stop giving myself to people who didn’t give a damn about me and it has fuelled me for better.

People in Malaysia are mean. I am sure people everywhere are mean but this week’s suicide case was pushed over the edge by very mean people. I once had a hate group on Facebook warning everyone against me as a scammer but eventually karma had it’s run and I came out triumphant. The point is, why do people have to be so cruel and unkind? How are we as Malaysians to change when the Government isn’t doing jack to help the Rakyat do better? Everyone is self serving and nobody is really paying attention to so many parts of Malaysia that is crumbling. Education, for one…. where it all begins.

There is also zero mental illness support (all there is in Malaysia is all self serving!) and cruel people can get the better of innocent victims to drive them to suicide, can you imagine? I do hope the Government wold start paying attention to suicide in Malaysia this year, 2022.

I am really, really sad today. I know how it is to be a victim. I have been one at so many levels ever since I was 5 in varying degrees and in all forms. So I know…..

I wish my friend didn’t die. I wish she had called me before she left the world. I hope the people who drove her to this and attacked her that night, including those who hurt her and refused to see sense, will see their karma as my own haters did. It sickens me that my own haters still follow me to keep up with my progress and I wish they’d just get on with their own lives, but I also realise that one day, they could be back to kill me. People cannot stand it when you are out there expressing your truth and it happens to irk them. They should learn to turn away instead of getting angry and jealous. Just go make something great with your own life, dammit!

Anyway.

My dear friend….. I am praying for you every night from here.

Thank you for all you have done for me. I love you.

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