This is my pre-teen. If you do a search on this blog circa 2006, you will see me write about her when she was a mere 2 year old bub. The love of my life this girl is. And this weekend, she totally hurt my feelings…….

Gee, how did she do that? First of all, at the 11th hour, she informed me of a school camping trip that she wanted to go to in Cameron Highlands. My immediate response in my own head was no fucking way. Why? Because it is a 3-4 hour drive up and who knows who the driver is and so many what ifs played out in my head. She is only 11. Really not mature enough in my opinion to be away without her parents. So I said we will need to discuss this with the Daddy.

Meanwhile, she had already planned a whole proposal written out to her Daddy whilst he was at work WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE and gave him all the reasons why she should go with her friends to Cameron Highlands for a camping trip. 1. She really, really, really, really wanted to experience life out in the wilderness 2. All her friends wanted her to go with them 3. She will get good points from the school for participation, maybe even a medal! 4. She will pay for her own trip from her own pocket (wow! she is so rich? Mind you, at our last trip to Kelantan of which we drove for the sake of an adventure, she said that the next time we drove again, she would also pay for her own flight there and meet us at the airport – LOL!!! *smack*) 5. I don’t know what other reasons she gave……

Before the Hubs came home, I received a few text messages from her friends begging me to let her go and I said the same thing that this needed to be discussed with her Daddy. I was cock sure he wouldn’t allow it.

That evening, T1 went to bed without a chance to see her Dad and she had needed an answer and payment by the next day. She went to bed very sad because I guess she could feel that I didn’t want her going and she probably knew that she wouldn’t be going either. Heh.

But when the Hubs arrived home, he was excited about her going to camp!!!

WTF!!!!!!! What the hell is going on?!?!?!!?!? I almost fainted. He, the guy who was always so anal retentive and protective of his girls was allowing his first born to go to camp? Camp where there were lots of male coaches and male students and I don’t know what else???

He asked me what was wrong??? I told him my concerns and he said we need to let go…..WTF. Then he said, you’re only worried because of what you did at camp when you were her age. WTF. I started crying…..

Because I could not accept that my first born was going to risk going to camp without me. I was SO upset. And I was upset that she planned it nicely to get her Daddy to agree to her going and I had no control in this. And at that point, I felt my Mother and realised what she had felt when I was the same at that age not giving a shit about what she felt and thought. My heart sank. I was losing my T1……I guess better to lose her to her Daddy than anyone else.

So what have I done wrong? I don’t spend enough time with her perhaps?   Why would she want to go to fucking camp when she had so much at home already!?

Or is this just a pre-teen normality? T1, my pre-teen…..she now has little buds on her chest growing into a young lady. Her maturity is profound and she has a mind of her own that startles me sometimes. Actually a lot.

What are some of the pre-teen things that has been happening to my T1?

1. Back talk – oh yeah….as she develops her own mind now, she can now be as sarcastic as me. Without realising that it could borderline rudeness!!! I never let it pass so she knows that there are some lines you just cannot cross.

2. Body changes – her body is undergoing puberty and the usual changes any girl would experience at her age and that includes ZITS. Thankfully we have Izumio to keep that under control.

3. Always on the Phone/Computer/Ipad – WORKING it seems. I have not checked but at secondary, she is either very, very busy with school work or very busy chatting to friends from school. And let’s hope it’s just friends from school.

4. Arrogant Behaviour – I have no idea where she gets this from. From me? But she never used to be like this…..yet now? She is so arrogant. She knows she is smart and she loves showing how smart she is to her little sister and she loves showing off her intelligence with me too! And just so you know, I met a lady who had mid twenties children yesterday and she was telling me how stressful it was with her kids. KIDS??? They were like adults already!!! But she said even as adults, they were stressing her out because they think they know better than an old lady. And I was just thinking oh dear……I should prepare for this then.

5. Rolling of Eyeballs – Ok, is this a pre-teen habit or does she take after me again? Can anyone verify? At the rate she rolls her eyeballs, I hope a lottery win comes out of her ass.

 So at 1am this evening, she finally arrives hoem from camp unshowered, hungry and exhausted. They slept late, woke up at 3am to climb a mountain. It then started raining so the descent was dangerous and they slid down the entire way. Can you imagine how filthy she was all the way on the bus ride home? She had muddy knickers, yo! And she came out screaming at 1am from the back area saying there was a cockroach. Damn. On the first count, I need to make my back area cleaner so there are ZERO opportunities for those pesky insects. On the second count, she just came from camp and is afraid of a cockroach? Was it camping or glamping???

Anyway, my best friend has recently lent me his apple TV and I am typing right this minute using my TV as the computer screen. So freaking awesome, I swear!!! I am so much more comfortable typing now on the couch than sitting on an office bloody chair despite the fact that it is a Herman Miller chair costing the Earth but cannot keep me comfortable due to my very short height that disallows me from touching the floor.

Life is good. It really is.

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