Just as I pledged that I was no longer going to lift a finger to help anyone or do anything because I am so burnt out from this years activities in which my own kids have suffered, 1,000 calendars arrived at my door step to be sold. Fuck me.

I was in so much turmoil that day. I was ready to sell them 3 months ago but not now when I’d already decided that I was too burnt out to lift another finger to do ANYTHING. So the decision was to give it one last push, do my last deed for the year before I go off on a long sabbatical from people in general, or just push the job to someone else.

Not referring to calendar sales in particular but why is it always me, me, me? Do I have the word idiot on my forehead? It sure feels like it. What more, I get ingratitude and shit for a lot of the things that I do and I wonder why I do them because it is just that much more challenging when people are not grateful. When people have NO IDEA how you bend over backwards and do somersaults for their convenience and benefit yet still have the time to whinge and whine. OMG. I am so over people. I swear to God.

They’ve actually pushed me to the brink of depression. People have taken and taken and taken from me in every form. I am so tired.

I am counting the days to when calendar sales are over and I am going to take a whole month off from work and spend it entirely with my kids. The Hubs is always at work and comes home late every single fucking day so as far as we’re concerned, he is a non-entity. He doesn’t even make enough money to warrant so many hours at work and I really do resent him for not spending enough time with us. I really have no patience for people who waste time and go on for hours wasting other people’s time but alas, I cannot expect everyone to be as efficient as others. Everyone has their threshold of competence and in the bigger picture, you will only know where the majority of the Malaysian work force stands if you have worked with a wide and large range of people over a length of time. It is almost always the case of people thinking they are damn good when they really are not. I see it with my employees. I have about 20 staff. Some get on with it. Some whinge all the time. Some think they are underpaid. Some say they work too hard. Some are very good technically. Some are very good ass lickers. Some talk too much. Some are very supportive. Everyone has a strength and everyone has a weakness. But man, I have no patience for whingers. It is really quite simple. If you are not happy, the door is right there. Walk out.

I put up with so much crap that it is not funny. I’m tired. Hell, I am truly tired. I just want to stop to smell the roses for a bit and spend some quality time with my family. We don’t need the money really. I can live very simply, no need to make tons of money, after all what do you take with you to your grave?

OK, rant over and now to the gym I go.

Oh, and by the way, here’s something I posted on facebook recently regarding my calendar sales:-

Christmas Present to The Children of Myanmar

3 months ago, it was decided that we were going to sell calendars for 2014 to raise funds for the Children of Myanmar. These particular group of kids (Tessa’s best friends) were from the Hosana Home and kept getting evicted because they failed to pay their rent every now and again.

Penny Choong (Money Tree Financial Literacy) and I sat down with a plan on how we were going to sell these calendars over the 3 months. Alas, true to Malaysian spirit, the calendars only arrived at my doorstep 2 days ago. These calendars were printed in Malaysia but depicts ‘home’ in the eyes of the Children of Myanmar. HTC had loaned them some phones for the day and sent them out to capture what is ‘home’ to them. The calendars display their interpretation of home with a little caption of ‘home’ to each individual kid. The kids designed the calendars too so really, it is their work and we need to help them as they know well that they have to work for their own survival. It has on it the Public Holidays of Myanmar AND Malaysia, again exhibiting our togetherness in this journey since our kids for kids project earlier this year.

We are selling the calendars for RM15 each but please feel free to donate more to allow these kids to have at least one year of peaceful accommodation without having to move yet again with no stability in their lives.

If anyone can help me sell these calendars to family and friends, I would be most grateful. I have 1,000 calendars to sell. Lynette Yee is already taking 200 today but will travel to Myanmar next Monday 16th December to bring them the cash in USD.

My bank saving account numbers:

HSBC – 359068285025
MBB – 1644-9025-6705
PAYPAL – patsywoo at gmail dot com

If there is a budget you had for charity this Christmas, please help me remove these stacks of boxes in my own home as soon as possible and give the children of Hosana Home at least a year they can call their current home, ‘HOME’.

If anyone needs to contact me, my email mamapumpkin at gmail dot com and mobile 012-2333840. No spam and hate mail, please!

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