Introspection

As I approach the half millennial mark, a little introspection is due. Not at all because I have been bullied and pushed around by evilness (erm, yes I actually have) but simply because I have not spent enough time to grief for the 3 closest people to me in this 2 year period of my life being my Mom, Fatty and Alice. It hit me suddenly this year that ever since my Mom passed away, I was driven to share about the Izumio business and it was all go-go-go until I hit a high and became successful supporting almost 3,000 people under me within 2 years and despite a lot of drama in the wings, I kept going. In case you were wondering what drama, my upline leader ditched me because I had brought in a power-house purported selfish bitch into my business. I protected her as best I could but the gossip that spewed from the mouths of women forced us out of the group and we have been out ever since. Zero support yet still contributing all my team’s hard work but it was OK. I am an independent girl and wherever I go whatever I do, I will be A-OK. We trudged on.

Last year, my cancer took a dive. It was my second wake up call after my heart disease. I hadn’t realised that my hard work and loaded stress from all these people ate me up and I cried to myself for weeks. It was a question to God – why. WHY. Why was it that all the good people get taken? Not being presumptuous at all that I was good but the very 3 people who were taken from me in the last 2 years were really, really good people. I was torn. On one hand happy to see them again on the other side, on the other hand worrying about my two girls and how they would cope without a mother. We were so close after all. I knew the Hubs would be a good carer but still, a mother would have made their lives complete. So cried I did. I blamed myself for allowing people to bully me. I blamed myself for not being able to say no to so many. I blamed myself for not listening to the Doctor 3 years ago when I had already been warned of this. I blamed myself for not eating clean, not resting sufficiently, not drinking enough water, and most of all, not even consuming my very own Izumio and Super Lutein sufficiently that I shared so much about. I completely brought this upon myself. Was it worth it? Absolutely not. All the money in the world would not have made up for this. And I don’t even think it happened just because of the stress of last year. I accept that it is an accumulation of my bad lifestyle since forever. So I suck it up quietly now and ACCEPT.

Since then I have been reading a lot of cancer books and learning how to eat clean. I took a solo holiday with kids to London for 2 weeks just after Japan with the family. I bought more books to read to FORCE myself to slow down and just chillax. Honestly? I have not been very successful in doing all that I need to do. So I try again next month……

Rest more, eat clean, put the phone away. Forget about the business. Spend more time with family. I am really looking forward to Australia and Europe. The Doctor says 10-15 years and don’t worry, long time more and also, that is worst case. However, I read that worst case, some have gone from Stage 1-4 within 6 months. Well, I am still here!!! So I must be doing OK!! Actually not so. I feel it spreading and this is why I MUST give it all up for now to REST. My friends are amazing. My team is fantastic. I have really no excuse. So with my 2 girls as the end goal in my daily meditation (yes, I have learnt now to meditate. It is quite fascinating!), I am going to CONQUER.

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett BSc in Architecture. She spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this Mamapumpkin blog since over 10 years ago and thereafter returned to the Corporate World stronger than ever. Her last job as Country Director of a British Railway Signalling organisation saw her getting ill with an aortal and mitral heart valve regurgitation and cancer. Through her journey from working to not working to working again, she sets out to prove to all women that they can do anything and everything that they set out to do; as long as they have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard with oodles of love, passion and integrity.

Despite being ill, she has grown a network marketing business from little knowledge and experience in the otherwise infamously known MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, racing from an income of ZERO to RM 100,000 monthly in merely 2 years. She is a firm believer of the MLM business model but realises the pitfalls too and understands how and why the majority of people would shy away from any MLM business.

She is now pondering the title of her new book, From Zero to 100,000 RM monthly in 2 years and has a sequel in the pipeline with the aim of helping real professionals succeed in the World of MLM. Always the giver, Mamapumpkin has supported orphans for years and has now extended her care to the sick, single mothers, and even struggling families. She believes that with the MLM business model, we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world.

A beautiful life without limits.

Mamapumpkin currently manages the Homeschooling Hub Malaysia on Facebook. She also runs Working Women Malaysia (not THAT kind of Working Women LOL), Mamapumpkin - Creating A Life of Abundance, and Funky Moms on Facebook to offer REAL support to all women who want career and life success. She is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially free has enabled her to travel the world anytime anywhere doing anything, and she spends most of her day to day with her children, reading and supporting other women.

For enquiries, please contact her at mamapumpkin at gmail dot com or WhatsApp her at +6012-2333840
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