I asked the girls last week about going to visit an orphanage to celebrate my birthday this year. I tend to like doing that. But they flat out said no. WHY???!!!! T1 said, “No. I just want to celebrate it with you and us this year.” Awwww. Poor kids. I think that last year has been a challenging year for all of us and now that they are at school, they see me less and perhaps they just want a little more of me. I don’t know. Or maybe it’s because I no longer work that they know I should not be giving to others but myself first. Or maybe they just miss me so much. Heh. I wish.
2015 – after an exhausting but still very memorable and eventful year last year, this year is full of positive excitement activity-wise. The girls have gone back to school. I have quit my high paying but highly stressful job so there is no more fly by wind expenditure. We are in the process of trying to sell my Mom’s property and I will be doing a big charity project this year (plan to raise even more than our last Kids for Kids Charity Bazaar) in order to build the SoyAi business in Myanmar that the Children of Myanmar run. I have started blogging again as you can see. I’m at 2 minds about whether to just blog purely for money or do both (as in, retain the blog’s intention in the first place) or maybe just start another blog just for money. I am also continuing to share the wonders of Izumio and Super Lutein. If you have tried it and felt nothing, you probably didn’t have an adviser who cared enough to explain the correct information with regards to dosage etc.
We continue to visit Mom’s grave weekly but I know she’s always with us wherever we are. I know because she is paving such a clear path for me in so many ways. The kids are doing well. We have had no dramas at all from the little one going to school. She is truly enjoying it although there are bloody freaking exams for a 5 year old. OMFG. But you know what, if you don’t let yourself be stressed out about it, so be it. Who cares if she gets an F for her Bahasa? Know what I mean? Not that she did, I’m just saying…..I’m really not one of those kiasu insecure Moms who needs a straight As child. In fact, I think that education should be child led. Children should just be allowed to play and be happy and explore the world around them and then by the time they are teenagers, start thinking about what they would like to start doing with the rest of their lives. As in what they would do to earn a living? It’s really quite simple. If they wanted to pursue a path where formal education is required such as being a Doctor, then they perform the steps required to get there. But if they decided instead to pursue some technologically advanced job, then again find out what is required to get there and take action.
Having said that, T1 is a straight A student just by natural default. She doesn’t work very hard at all yet manages to get it. T2 on the other hand is developing at a much slower rate than T1 ever did. And yet, there is no love lost. None at all. They are both different and special in their own ways, just like we all are. Honestly, having a child who gets an F for all subjects throughout his school years does not mean the child is stupid or untalented or dyslexic or lazy or whatever. Likewise, having a child who is a straight A student throughout her school years does not mean the child is brilliant or will be successful or is happy. If you don’t see that, you obviously have not seen enough of the world, enough of Harvard, Cambridge and MIT graduates acting like complete dick-heads or enough unknown people who are really magnificent and successful. The truly very, very rich are humble and low profile, you won’t even know. I myself hail from a good University so I should be singing praises of UCL, and more so The Bartlett, yes? But no. I’m just an ordinary Mom who loves my kids to death.
We will be visiting another new country this year. In fact, 2 new countries, insyallah. It all depends on whether the Hubs can get away at the Maldives dates in May or not. Otherwise I will need to think of what to do with my 2 Club Med Maldives Holiday tickets. I’m trying very hard to convince him to make a short trip back to Europe just so I can help my Godsister with her baby but I’m not sure we have enough school holidays to cover it.
This year’s birthday marks a weird feeling in my life. Weird because suddenly I am faced with death lurking and it’s a grim thought which I try not to think about. 10 years. In 10 years, T2 will only be 15, T1 will be 20. I cry buckets when I think about this. So we change the subject and not think about it. Technology might be more advanced by then. And miracles happen. They do. Look at my Mom. They gave her 6 months, she got 14 years. I have lived a great life but I do want to see my children grow up into useful adults and better still if I could experience being a grandma and say, nyeh-nyeh-nyeh……it’s payback time, you little monkeys!!! Hahaha. My girls think that I will be around to help them babysit their babies, can you believe it?! They already have a plan. And whilst I am thinking of gallavanting the world after the apron strings are cut, the Hubs has other ideas of following their every move!! Crazy man.
The old man in Kota Bharu is getting old and is all alone. We need to find a solution for him too. I wish and wish that he would just move to KL. That would be perfect for all of us.
Happy Birthday to me. I thought I was starting the day with someone special but at the 11th hour something came up. People with genuine hearts are truly hard to come by. I am so very grateful that I already have what I have which is so much more than so many. The least I can do is to help others as my own Mom did throughout her life. It is her legacy. People still come up to me today to speak about her. People whom I don’t even know and who just discovered that she has passed on. She has touched many, many poeple in her own way somewhere, sometime, somehow…….
Thank you, God. Thank you, all. Happy Birthday to me 🙂