My daughter made me cry today….

By Mamapumpkin, on November 13th, 2008

We had just finished classes and it was raining. Tee reminded me that it was HER TURN to listen to HER MUSIC in the car so I turned her CD on which immediately sounded out some high pitched screeching chipmunks attempting to ‘sing’ the It’s A Small World song.

“Hey Mom!! Remember I went to Disneyland in America to the It’s a Small World place??!! It’s the same song!!!”

“Mmm…..” *before you make any judgement, it was an excited kind of Mmm…ok?*

“Do you remember the wishing well where I threw coins?”

“Mmm….” *not remembering at all, for the life of me, not caring either*

“Do you want to know what I wished for????”

“What?” *suddenly interested*

“I wished that Nana was well again and has no more cancer.”

*paused in shock for a split second, then the crying taps opened*

Do you have any idea how difficult it is to disguise a choking voice when a chatty toddler keeps talking and asking questions?

I suddenly had flashbacks of the wishing well she meant, which really was the water that our boat was gliding over and yes, she had wanted to throw some copper coins in. How could she have remembered such a thing? And how is it that she even remembered what she had wished for? Was she making it all up???

I realised then that I had been blocking the realities out of my mind for awhile and the tears just wouldn’t stop. It’s just easier to put it aside and not think about it but the reality is that my Mom’s condition IS getting worse. Slowly but surely.

She has spent thousands of dollars at the dentist in order to salvage her dilapidating teeth. Just imagine, she survives on soup, ice cream and yoghurt and the cancer is just eating away at her teeth. One by one, they are all slowly dying. The more she visits the dentist, the more disappointing the news gets. It is just something we have to accept.

There is no cure, except that with God’s will, she will fight to the very end of her last tether. She is a strong woman and Tee keeps her going…….